So I know I haven't had the best part in my life recently. So maybe its not even close to being over. Here are some of the less positive things that have been swirling around in my head and have been said to me...

I have been told I am mental. I have been called a liar. I have been yelled at so, very many times. Again and again and I'm sure they will keep coming. But there are some positive things too. I have good and bad in my life. Nobody in the Bible ever said life is going to be easy. God never promised me a safe, perfect, joyful life. I don't know what some of you read between the lines but I have never seen anywhere in the Bible where it states that our life is all about us and our happiness. We are here for one main reason: To honor and worship God! So we need to stop our selfish ways. So here is my good and positive things:

I have made it this far. I have all of the sudden had some of my worst days become at least ten times better after I prayed. Even if it doesn't seem like it now, some good is going to come out of this at some point. At least God has promised me He will be there for me through every single thing in my life. And God has decided He wants another human down here. I am going to have another little brother or sister! I think He had planned this all along. I was going to have to go through this but He was gonna give me something wonderful to look forward to also. I love my God. I love everything about his complex mind and wonderful, perfect spirit. Thank you Daddy, for being there!

So. I guess this doesn't really matter to most of you out there, but this is one of the most important things I have thought about or talked about or typed about, whatever, in the entire 12 years I have been bored. I think you should read the Bible if you haven't, and then compare it with your own life. Think about that.

Luv, Lauren Xoxoxo